I don't wanna keep feeling scared
But I'm just so underprepared
I just wanna live my life
And not feel like im bringing a knife
To a gun fight
I'm too uptight
‘Cept when writing songs in the dead of night
If all these anxieties
Could just stop controlling me
Then I could finally become who I’m supposed to be
I just wanna live my life
don't tell me if it’s wrong or right
And I'm gonna step into the sun
Even if it means that I get burned
Because I’d rather get burned
Than never see the light
And life is better to be lived
Even if you get hurt
Because it's better to get hurt
Than to be stuck in the night
There's a war in my head
And I wish it would end
Would it be more efficient
If I just didn't
Think feel or even make a sound
All these thoughts spinnin’ ‘round
Makin me wanna leave this damn town
I just wanna live my life
don't tell me if it’s wrong or right
I’ve gotta step out of my boat and learn to swim
Even if i dont always win
I’ll never drown
Because you can't learn to fly if you never hit the ground
But what if the fall is fatal
Is it better to be stuck on this trail
Of being too scared to even speak
Maybe I am just to weak
I guess age ten is when I peaked
Before I realized
that people's eyes
Are never far behind
From your mistakes
When the day breaks
Will I step into the sun or will I continue this heartache?
I just wanna live my life
don't tell me if it’s wrong or right
It’s probably worth the try
Afterwards I feel better, so tell me why
I’m still scared every time
I swear if I could be fearless
I’d be the best
That must be why God gave me all this stress
But that stress can’t hold me back
It feels like I’m gonna have a heart attack
When my hands start to shake
The running thoughts don't take a break
And my heart starts racing
And my mind starts spacing
And I can’t breathe
Tell me, where is the strength underneath?
I just wanna live my life
don't tell me if it’s wrong or right
What I’ve found in all my days
Is that despite the fear, it normally pays
Off to put yourself out there
I just have to ignore the stares
Even though I wanna gasp for air
Because no one really notices
The little details, that’s not where their focus is
It gets easier every day
My life won’t always be this way
So I’ll work on being myself
Even if I’d rather be someone else
I’ll do it unapologetically
Especially
When my fear gets the best of me
Just gotta fake it ‘till I make it
Until when I’m scared I can just shake it
One day I’ll get there
One day I won’t be scared
I’m just gonna live my life
don't care if you think it’s wrong or right
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